Away

I was healing. Instead of trying to mend, it started peeling, I looked behind for a friend, but now i rethink, the subtle pulling of ends, I had to keep in.
I tolerated the past but now its all clear. I put myself in a cast of rational fears. "Not so unreasonable now", the words from my peers. "Why are you still here?", block out what I hear

I thought it mattered when I called too, I saw the pattern but it's all cool
I've fucking had it but I'd rather keep my focus on the latter than the former but it nevertheless falls through.
The pain is mine, and that is part of what gets me, and in time, the sickness starts to infect deep, it spreads already
I've been afraid of what you say and not just barely, I take the weight, though it starts to feel

Inside, I've been tired but push on,
I grin my, empty smile but could not
Again try, while I keep in mind that upon.
These thin lines, I'm feeding the fires that go wrong so as
a misfit, I reminisce to what I was to this kid. The antithesis to this evicted, guest, dressed in best, mess, lest I forget it said it cared less around this, but
I never thought the first song that I wrote about this, would be me venting and lamenting about how this, couldn't even see, what it did to me, I feel my inadequacy, but adequately
I thought I was enough but I misread.
I didn't see the incessant pending of something else that wasn't met
And I don't blame it, I just wish that I knew this before I gave in

Round two, keep my distance, as it builds up ahead, I push it instead but
I fell through, in an instant, but it's all in my head, it repeats, I feel bad for letting this happen again, it hurts still I don't learn from what hasn't been said.
the insecure, extension foregone, I think we've been here before can you stop me from just hanging on